a slight update

LIFE. life's just okay.

LOVE. love's been the worst. i dunno y nazrin made a decision just like that without ever want to discuss it over. I HATE HIM!! i do. but, there's times when i miss him. (confused hah? ya, me too). i hate you nazrin. giving hopes n ruin things just as easy. kuanghaja! (pls say the word like nairus' n fairuz's version). huuuu, u know it's very dissapointing.. i just spill about our rship to aina.. sedih that it cudnt work out AGAIN. 10,000,000th time now. bosan je aina nak dengar. so, ive decided not to tell aina pulak bout the split. gile.. pamie dah pesan, dont go too rush in future.. i dont. i din. nazrin did!! die yg rushing2 into it so much.. sayang, blablabla itu.. sayang, blablabla ini.. sayang i sket.. all the craps.. ewh.. eerghhh! i am so not over it ke? relax nadia, it's a phase... just a phase.. haha.. cakap kat zul bukan main pandal lagi.. phase la ape la... wekk.. ppl..

WORK/OFFICE. work's never been more stressful. dgn pending daily reports since 30th jan until 17th feb. it's half a mth man.. i cant believe that zam cud be that selfish when i was on my medical leave. man, gdm! i was sick...!! n yati n azmi pon tak bleh plak nak pakse zam suh wat eh? tqvm all. tqvm. it's my day now. urs will come one day. huh! REVENGE!! GRUDGES!! ya Allah, busuknye ati aku.. huh! nak wat camne.. like mashe consoled me, saying : nard, kdg2 kawan2 ni pun susah gak nak ckp.. hmmm, mmg pon!! balek2 aku je yg kene buli. mentang2 la aku ni lemah... duuh!! hmm, well, oh yes.. OM team dah reshuffle balek.. nazri gi injap, halim's taking his place, humai ganti uncle krishnan jadi driver halim, while uncle krishnan jadi driver team bani.. bani dah pening dari pagi semalam mikirkan masalah berdepek datang atas bahu.. haishhh.. owh, n acik plak masuk geng abg hamzah.. hahhh, amek ko reshuffle cam haram.. zam plak, taking halim's mwo part.. halim kene handle team 2A.. hell dowhh for him.. that's seriously a total disaster.. halim sangat tidak mahu handle site balek.. he's been there last year for a few mths.. dan mcm2 die merungut dengan penuh hampe.. dahla takleh nak ot, pastu huuuhh, kalao aku, part yg paling aku benci is when it comes to month end n u have to settle all of the ot chit for the team members. huh! tough2!! god bless him.. n fyi, we're still not in talking term.. but yeah he did text me while i was hospitalized the other day but i din replied his sms ever.. up until now.. jahat kan aku? no, i just cant accept what he'd said to me.. he said it into my face.. pointing his finger.. into my face.. seriously man, i cant accept that.. im sorry.. kau mintak maaf jela dengan tuhan k.. i think ive already done my part ..

blog warming greetings

Assalamualaikum.. :8)

i dunno y but as i wake up tadi ive decided to blog seriously. ngee~ i just love to share my thots n opinions, my feelings.. so i said y not? hmmmm.. ive blogged in my ofis blog site but the moderator once told me that the thing only can be seen by the owner je.. aiks? klaka ok..

ok, it's 5 to 8 now. im still on my bed. nak basuh baju, mak da potong line.. :8( terpaksela tunggu.. erk..

oh yes. smlm i went out n lepaks2 with my dear gf zt. hang around her bilik. do some catchups. dah bertaon tak jumpe boleh? padehal duk punyela dekat.. owh, what a bz women we are.. (poyo!).. ok, the updates!! zt dah almost 2 years working as a PA to an architect kat jkr yg tempat aunty waheeda keje tu.. next to medan mara there.. owh, what a story.. n lagi hangat zt bleh eh bercinte ngan mamat satu boss ngan aku.. uik uik.. (neways, samat maju jaye la zt on ur rship ok!). hmm, i never asked what his name is. tapi, the bf is from pj ofis. hmmm, lagi.. owh, it's very sad to hear bile zt cakap mak die saket.. suffering from colon cancer.. (bless her!).. syian mak zt.. nearly 3mths now after she's diagnosed. now, zt tgh sibuk2 settlekan for her to transfer to seremban so that die bleh jage mak die kat sane.. but si sengal ni belum lagi submit form tu to JPA. hadoi la zt.. well, papepun.. let us pray for her mother's wellness..

well, earlier last nite jugak nadia texted me kate nak cite masalah hangat.. i said ok im all ears.. lahaiii.. sian minah ni.. die sedang head over heel for a guy yg oredi engaged. hmmm..

aku tengah tunggu bila dia nak datang n cerita masalah dia tu kat aku.


off.

updates!!!

am currently browsing the net straight from my hospital bed.. (chehh.. bleh wat lagu emo mcr baru!!) hikhikhik.. nothing serious kot.. to me la… but to nairus, wah.. die yg lebih freakout sbb my blood pressure was low for the past week.. it went lower and lower that i din drive myself to the clinic.. (thx to su ali, zam dan pakcik2 teksi dan Pn Nora of course yg membawa saye ke Reddy– here we go again.. anor memo di Reddy ring my head.. haha.. lame gile perangai!!)

well, nothing much.. tadi Dr Fazilah wat rounding.. n she said.. im free je kalao nak balek.. boleh aje dilepaskan.. but, i chose to stay here.. memikirkan kerja-kerja di SYABAS yg piling up.. pending… sume menanti kedatangan Cik Nadia ni untuk settlekan, pening kepale aku… dengan zam yg kejam tu.. huh! (ko bace ni zam.. pengkhianat bangse!!)

oh yes, zul baru pulang… die datang amek id die nk gi ofis jap.. n Pak Yeop n Abg Osman Bunge pun drop by jap td.. membawe buah2an.. hehehehe.. i was entertained having them around.. when pak yeop cakap pasal his fishing comp kat titiwangse die dapat tangkap kure2.. hahahahahaha.. klaka gile.. n the peaks were like when we ngumpat like hell bout the management.. >;8) ha ha ha… oh ye, tadi juge Miss Reggy The Cutest Bb datang.. b4 she went off to mlc.. ngan family die.. die drop by sum sup tulang she bought from yusop haslam.. hehehehe… (aku belum mkn lagi reggy… soriii.. too full.. kang ai mamam ye.. :8)) oh, yes, not to be forgotten of course, CK pun datang tadi n managed to hear sum HOT stories dari die.. yehey!!! serunuk kan….? keje cam CK.. hihihihi.. jeles3… nak KJ, CK.. aku nak KJ!!!! ngahahahahahaha…

n oh, kak fetti da discharged da.. dah slamat discharged.. die sangat happy.. Dr Fazilah bagi die mc for like 3-4 days kot tadi aku dgr.. if im not mistaken la… but niting pon, aku da exchange our fon nums.. senang la kot2 de masalah banking/bekalan air.. senang nak ring up kan? hihi..

tadi ayah n makyah drop by… just to check whether im doin fine or not.. u know, it feels great to get to know the fact that ppl actually concern about u… but it tends to happenned when u’re sick, not feeling well, not in a good condition so called n so forth.. heh! bosan! but, im liking this.. im surrounded by loveable line ups of frens n relatives… (yeah! nadia mmg disayangi..!)

so, i’d like to take this opportunity to thank everyone who had dropping me a visit..

ck, en muhaizam ahmad, fairol anuar zahari, airil yeop, amirul, abg sham, mak, along, boy, babah abd aziz ali, babahku ab aziz ab wahab of course…, pamie, kid jogging partnerku, Nairus n Fairuz (how can i forget?).. hmmmm… siti nadia n fren, aida izit? (sorry if i get that wrong), cousins… kak wa, oshin n atien.. shaharil n fifa from global globe.. pakyob n abg osman bunge.. who else? owh, yes… how can i forgot.. Zul Azri Sharim, Yayan dan Khairun Najjah (thx for the visits.. thx for accompanying me… hihihi.. thx for the lappy zul.. mirul, thx for the blue cube.. najj baby, thx for the MELMAN.. i lov u..!!)

and the donuts from all of u guys.. haha… thx sbb sudi layan kemengade2an aku pada ari pertama aku di sini.. yehey!!!

erghhh.. so far, tu je kot yg aku nak jot down here.. a few highlights.. nanti pape i’ll let u know later aite… :8))

♥

B. Disgrace

well..

it’s been a long time since my last post.. been very busy with WORKS WORKS WORKS lately.. hmmphh… lesser times to spend with buds n pets n family..

WORK. for the past one year, everything seems ok.. i cant say that everything’s went wel cus it’s a total lie.. nu job, bigger responsibilities after one of the staff resigned. hmm..

LIFE. life? i dun think i have any since i started working back in operations n maintenance div.. huuuuuu.. sedey! even when aina came back here for hols pun i gotsa see her for one time je.. :8(( sowi lalink.. :8(( renduuuuuu ni… n same goes with rakan2 skola rendah ku.. esp, zul, yayan, reggy, ajoy (sowiiiiiii pasal last minute tak dapat pegi kenduri itu!!)..

LOVE.. <3>

wrecked/screwed? you choose..

Dad. i oways hav fights with babah. big ones. humongous, huge. (u choose). most of the time on money. on payday. about which car imma buy. about my frens. about who’s im seeing/dating. who’s calling me. about my working attitude? (who the heck he think he is?). close frens hav been listening to the craps for years now. argh! the cibai-est fact is: WHATEVER he says GOES. "im the KING of the HOUSE". "if u want to live one roof with me, u must follow my rules or otherwise u can live by yourself outside" (fuck). mcm la aku nak sgt duk kat uma tu! (kan along?). ive punched my bedroom wall to ease the stressful fights.. huuuuuuuuuuuuuuu… sedey.. as usual, "knape idop ni mcm babi?". abah, stop being damn overprotective n pls learn to let go of me. im going on 23 dis year. get a life!

Boy. i hav my own reasons to actually hate or disrespect him. (pegi mampos). i dun care. owh, after what? two to three years now, he came back n showing off his new cipet (gf)–who is happened to be junior than me, 2 years at least– to mak n mak easily accepted him back.. i felt horrible n u can say that im threatened when i heard the news that perempuan zana cipet tu is younger than me. (that im not his ‘lil sis’ anymore) how fuck up is that? (or am i just being a fat ass emolicious sister?) arghh! the next thing i know that he brought the stupid girl (who fall for my asshole brother, the most stupidest, selfish-est human being on earth-after en ajis of course!) to see my psychodad n bam! he liked her (of course cus he cant see ppl’s face clearly).. hek elehh.. n again i was threatened.. how cibai is that? u tell me…

Pempuan ZANA (boy’s cipet). i was having thoughts bout me being rude to her i.e rolling my eyes when she (sincerely kunun2) smiled at me while we’re shaking hands. ok, baru nak insaf skejap tibe2 on mother’s day she blowed my top again! nak suck up my mother wishing happy mother’s day.. (macam takde mak sendiri). kalo takde pon, pegi la wish kat tea lady kat ofis ko tuu!! BONGOK! hahaha.. i then smsed boy n ckp mrapu2…=die tak brani call i.. but he called my mother’s fon 8 times.. tapi aku da wat fon mak to silent mode.. (haha, padan muke ko!!)

Ayu (from mak’s ofis). pempuan psycho from east coast (care not to share the exact state). sukati makapak die je calling my mom mama.. kepale tut laa!!! (owh, i was not threatened langsong dgn pempuan ni…). mak never bother about her. tapi… ergh! rase nak sepak (as slap) her heek off her face when i drop by at mak’s ofis for the first time with sufiah.. bodo dan sgt mangkok.. muke cam iban nak jadi adek bradek aku! ahh, pegi mampos ah sume!!

Aunty Zana (su’s soon wife to be). i dun like her cus she took away my fave, closest, cool, loving uncle away from me.. n now, su looks like a serabai guy with moustache(did i spell it right?) and beard. huduh! she possessed him. n umpan him with money, which is su’s weakness, i guess! huuuuu.. she’s buying him a camry.. skang su da cam arrogant sket.. like 3.2%.. tak cuke!!! nak su yg dulu… oways have time for nieces.. late nite hangouts.. lepak2 tym… now nie, nak tanye opinions on kete pon agak sukar.. every single time i called he’s like " su kat shalam ni adik.. maybe next time.. later aite?" huuuuuuuuuuu!! tak cuke!!!!! aunty zana, dun take away my su lan!! :8((

farehah. then, updates..

i envy dis girl so much. perfect skin, perfect hair, perfect skin’s reflection, perfect figure, almost everything about her is damn perfect! huhu.. lifestyle die pon sangat cool.. tym nak jelite, jelite je die. tym nak elegant, elegant.. tym nak funky, funky.. tym nak sepsi, sepsi.. :8)~ farehah, if u’r reading dis, u go girl!! :8)~ simply becus u dun hav to act supan. seriously, she’s just being herself.. takyah nak pretend2 like u;r sumkind of supan girl.. kan kan??

hmm.. so, imma werk my ass 4 citibank plak.. imma housing loan credit operator! yeh! to sape2 yg nak wat housing loan, approach la i! *wink* keje ok kot.. sbb ade yus.. haha! aku pon tatau fullname die ape.. blasah je panggel yus.. so from tomorrow onwards i’ll be continuing the tradition of my laki.. yeeha! misti nnt dapat jumpe shahril kan? yeh, shahril sangat ensem walaupon susah berbini.. (jgn jeles ye..)

hmm.. da bape mgu since aj balek.. but i never had the chance to meet her yet.. adekah die sangat bz? wid haus stufs prolly. or she just in the mode of not-going-to-socialize, still? perhaps.. i dunno.. i told her oredi yg i merajuk bodo ngan die.. huhu.. (saje) but she never replied my sms since.. let her laa… biarlah… emosi kot.. :8)~

hmmm.. k la.. nak settlekan blogradio.. da~

work

nu job.

am currently working my ass off kat dis fashion line co la.. sangat penat.. but at least i’ll oways have my family n relatives there if anything ever goes wrong… along, su lan n adie (my uncle adie la actually).. the keje is quite ez la.. but then the capacity, pergh! sangat banyak… kalo nak suh aku tunjuk diff die in graphs.. aku gune graf kuadratik.. (sorry for being crappy).. la bla bla.. not even a month aku keje sane, boss’s lil sis (fenly) has been calling me almost everyday. asking 4 help. suh handle red zone’s times square store n the upcoming store that’ll prolly be opened son in swp. sangat pening laa at d 1st time… suruh je aku handle stock, stockcard listing laa.. hek eleh.. da la aku lembab accounts2 ni! tp quite ok laa… things went well je.. kalau tak paham pape, aku tanye su or trus refer kat fenly. owh lupe nak mention, ofis kat ceras bisnes ctr. transportation kat sane cam haram! so, i decided to ikut my "uncle" adie n su everyday to ofis.. malas nak ikot along sbb pempuan tu kua awal. pastu jln kaki cam haram tuuuuuu.. jauh tuuuu from taman midah to ofis.. da la ade anjeng!! berekor2.. cam haram.. ergh… signing off.. ade hal.. later2 i sambong.. dada