another update..

1) KERJA.

Aku baru balik dari bercuti. Jumaat n Sabtu lepas. Heh, as usual la.. Masuk2 je pagi tadi berlambak la kan kes. Takde sape nak amik tau agaknye. Im not bias but i will never blame Zam for that. Zam mmg ade keje die sendiri. MWO die nak kene settle. Ye, ckp mmg senang. Ingat nak buat MWO tu bleh trus buat kat P6 terus ke? Maaf sket.. TIDAK. Ergh! Aku faham keje die. Yang aku tak faham tu si Aisha. Ape yg die buat selame ni eh kat unit aku ni? Die sedar tak yang die nye contribution tu terlampau sikit? Tolonglah weh. Ape2 keje yang kite buat kenala ikhlas. Kan? Aku geram nak je sound pempuan tu direct. Tp aku ni masih waras dan rasional. Aku pk sbb nak keje lame je. Nak ngadap pempuan tu hari2 gak. Dah la duduk sbelah2. Celake. Mmg aku rase mcm celake. Kadang2 tu aku rase perangai die tu sangat mcm celake. Selfish! Aku tak tau nak explain camne. Yg aku tau, kalau kat unit ni tinggal aku ngan Zam je lagi bagus. Pastu absorb balik Abg Ajis untuk settlekan P8. Abis cite. Senang. Takdela menyusahkan hidup aku ngan Zam. Yang aku pelik tu, aku rase dah lebih 5 kali dah aku prompt Man pasal problem. Tapi die buat bodo je. Boleh? Kuang haja betul la sume org.. Ape ingat aku ni keje untuk dibuli ke? Argh! Stress.. Celake!!!! Aku tak tau la kenape. Nak kate sbb die pregnant? Alah, before die kawen pon perangai die dah mmg camtu. Love to take things for granted. Buat keje sambil lewa. Buat mcm bapak die ade share dalam syarikat die sbb die senang2 bleh mengangkang 24jam n pilih keje2 senang je nak buat. Bagus sangat la tu konon? Pegi mati la ko. Aku rase silap haribulan nanti anak ko pon ikot malas same mcm ko. Lazy bum! Kalau tak menyusahkan org takpe. Dahla tadi bikin hati aku panas. Kerja kontraktor yang buat, pegi pandai close tindakan oleh SYABAS. Bongok! Aku benci kau! Benci gile. Bile la ko nak berubah.. Sbb perangai kau yg pentingkan diri sendiri tu tadi, Zam yang cuti tu pon kene dtg ofis balik tolong aku settlekan MWO. Skang ni nampak mcm aku yg tak reti nak cope dengan keadaan yang tegang. Kuang haja. Screw you!! Ah, kalao nak bercerite pasal pempuan ni sampai bile pon tak abes.

Pagi tadi ade ad hoc meeting. Sume staff operations kene attend, including myself. Ingatkan pasal pengambilalihan tu. Rupenye pasal hari Ahad, technician sume takde. Kena plak ade critical case. Last2 dengar cite top management yang kene turun padang. Hah, amik kau! Gile kan? Yang aku tgk cooperation mmg kurang la. Sume gile kuase. Yang A nak kenekan B. Yang B nak kenekan C. C nak kenekan D. Mase meeting pon main tembak je kawan2 depan top management. Jagelah periuk nasi org. Kalau dah kantoi ngan top management tu barulah pandai2 diorg nak jawab. Mmg masalah sket kat operations ni sbb we're working round the clock. 24/7. Aku kesian diorg yg kene keje site. Esp those yang bukan local. Diorg ade kampung nak balik every mth. Hmm, tapi apepon, kalau dah keje, namenye pon tanggungjawab. Aku rase baik ko datang ke keje. Reason: Ape sbb kau balik kg? Sbb nak bagi parents korg duit kan? Hmm, kalau korg kene buang keje, ape yang korg nak bagi kat mak bapak korg? Kadang2 aku pon pelik gak. Kenape diorg takleh pk bende2 camni. Common sense la.. Bukan payah pon. Takde formula2 pon.. Fikir logik je. Hadoi, tahlah. Susah nak ajar sbb sume dah besar panjang. Haishh...

Due what had happened last Sunday, the management has decided to move the Sentul Ops Team to Sg Besi office. Erk. Ok, maybe ade kebaikan nye. Mmgla, work wise, senang. Satu station, team normal hour senang nak deal dengan team standby. Team standby plak senang nak deal dengan team malam. Customer service ppl senang nak liase dengan team. N, kontraktor pon senang nak deal ngan technician n execs. Kang memudahkan sume org. Tapi, aku ade gak rase cam ERK!! Boleh ke ni aku ni? Ive to face the fact that im going to be working in the same building with my ex again? Ye, mmg kami dah berbaik semula. Berkawan. But that doesnt mean that i can deal with having him around the same area with me. Aku belum bersedia lagi nak duduk satu meja breakfast dengan die ramai2, or lepak minum kat Tengkorak ramai2 dengan die. Hadoi... Hidup ini sungguh babi, kan? Ouh tidak... Ungrateful sungguh...! Teruknya aku... Ish!

2) Class started

Hmm yes. Class has already started last weekend. Best. Aku paling minat kat English tutor. The way she explains things are so understandable. Yeah. I love you Puan Jen. Wuhuuuu~ Ouh yes, English dah siap ade assignment pon. Ade four topics given, tapi kene pilih satu je untuk dijawab. And i chose the one yang berkaitan dengan "PPSMI:a yes or no?". Aku minat tajuk ni sbb aku rase aku byk sangat point nak dielaboratekan. :8) Yeahhhh! That's the spirit.. Uhuhuhuhu.. Skang aku tgh sibuk buat research pasal PPSMI ni. Google is always around pon. So far aku dah check beberape blogger yang pointed out their opinion on PPSMI. Everything dalam dunia ni ade pros n cons. So does PPSMI. Tapi, pendapat aku sendiri, banyak kebaikan dari keburukan. Huhu..

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It's already two past two. I need my sleep. Besok haru plak kat ofis menahan mate yg mengantuk sambil memikirkan report yang dah 5hari pending. (Kuang haja!). Dahla, nak tido..

sigh

skang ni aku takde mood la nak layan org. especially org yg dari takde masalah gi carik masalah. kan bodoh namenye tu. tahla.. aku tak faham kenape dia buat camtu. adekah faktor umur die yg da nak cecah late 20's to early 30's? adekah die sangat desperate untuk mencari the one? hadoi.. lek la.. kan? aku pon single pe? n im enjoying my single life. ive girlfriends, a bunch of girlfriends yang understanding.. (aina, i miss u!! :8(().. hmmm. tahla.. aku sampai skang betol2 tak faham knape nadia dgn kreatifnye make up stories.. create beberape watak yg tak wujud pun.. dan that guy plak, aku pelik juge.. camnela die bleh jatuh hati walaupon tak penah jumpe..? hmmm.. kerja gile la tu sume.. sampai putus tunang nak kat pempuan yg ada kebarangkaliannya tak penah wujud.. mengarut! tahpape.. haishh.. entala wey.. malas nak layan sangat.. ive done my part pun.. aku dah advice, kalao nak dengar, dengarlah.. kalao taknak dgr, sukehati.. ko yg mintak nasehat aku aritu, kan? (kepada yang berkenaan, if ure reading this. -you know who you are-)la la la la la~

ouh, arini aku de appointment dengan aku nye orthopaedics specialist. (dapat mc, yeay!!).. aku suke betul camni.. hahaha.. pemalas! biarlah.. aku cuti ke, aku EL ke, aku cuti saket ke, sorg pon tak peduli ngan keje aku.. diorg biar je pending camtu.. call, suh dtg lagi adela.. ape punye boss tah.. suh je aku dtg ofis time org takleh nak drive.. CRAZY!.. mmgla aku ngaku aku ni quite a workaholic type jugak... tapi takdela sampai saket2 pon aku nak datang kan?

arini, aku dah cite ngan najjah n nairus pasal kegilaan yg aku tgh lalui skang.. yes, it's not that serious, tapi bleh buat engko tak keruan kot? haha.. tataula kan kenape aku ade rase camni.. susah nak explain.. tapi.. hmmm, dasar bipolar..!! dahla nard, jgn dilayan sangat perasaan bodoh itu.. la la la~ takpe, ade free time nnt la aku tulis lagi.. sbb, for the time being takde yg best sangat aku experience.. sume biase je..

rasenye aku patot tido.. tp aku dah terbyk minum black coffee tadi.. bolehke tido.. hmmm.. dahla.. gudnite..

haha

nard penah bercinta dengan tokan pills? haha.. i just knew this smalam. nadia yg bitau. i know that he used to do drugs/pills but i have no idea it's to that extend. haha. gile la. seb bek da break up. i so have nothing to lose pon. nadia said: nazrin mmg cerewet bab pempuan. dak2 cakap: ape yg die nampak tah kat nazrin si kurus keding tu? i said: haha. now i understand why.. :8)

CEREWET. he's being cerewet. i dun care. aku ni tak cerewet la plak. he never spilt everything la sbenanye. and im so thankful that i din too. yeah yeah yeahs! haha. TG! aku mmg bijak kali ni. (thx to pamie, of course!). tahla wey.. uhuk2

KERENDUAN?. i miss halim!! nuff said. dahla sok nak balek mlc. lagila emo je kang tgk exit die. argh. GTH. malas la. i dun wanna put anything closer to the HIGH HOPE circles. hah! gile kau.. kang jadi cam dulu balek baru padan dgn muke. kan? haishhh... (jap nak bace doa).. Amiin~

KERJA. huh! keje keje keje. bosan gile. malas nak cite pasal keje wat mase ni. sangat stress!! susah nak terangkan pasla keje kat org yg tak reti2 pasal work flow kite. pegi mati la ko!

*nak tido. ive a long journey tomorrow morning. balek kampung. oOOooOOoOOo balek kampung.. uhuk2.. da~

just why laahh???

GUYS and HONDAs. EK to be specific. why? huh! i just dont understand why do guys fancy Honda EK so much.. ive couple of ppl i know who drives an EK, who's gonna buy an EK, whose dream car is EK. erghh!! i dont get it. just why la? VTEC besar. tu je jawapan yg aku salu dapat.. hmmm, i just found out my long long lost ex-bf also drives a Honda EK. hmmm, well, even zam pun nak beli second car die EK. lahaiiiii... bosan. aku dah bosan naik n drive EK.. halim pun pakai EK. ewhhhh, get a life la guys..!! cam takde kete len ke nak wat jadi kete idaman? i mean, like, ok, i love honda jazz.. cus of the fact that it's kind of a compact, n cute n small n easy to handle with side parkings n all.. hmmmm, n i love the new civic too.. but nape sume org laki cume suke EK? tak faham... bli la city baru tu ke.. kan cantek? hmmmm, halim, ive gave him a full of support if he's having strong thots of getting him his dream car.. but, 12years of age? that car is so tua.. da banyak kali aku larang, but he insist of buying it.. siap sorok2.. hmmm, sukati la.. now, he end up facing major breakdown while he's on his way from mlc to office last mth. something to do with the drive shaft. semoga Allah memberkati die. amiin~

a slight update

LIFE. life's just okay.

LOVE. love's been the worst. i dunno y nazrin made a decision just like that without ever want to discuss it over. I HATE HIM!! i do. but, there's times when i miss him. (confused hah? ya, me too). i hate you nazrin. giving hopes n ruin things just as easy. kuanghaja! (pls say the word like nairus' n fairuz's version). huuuu, u know it's very dissapointing.. i just spill about our rship to aina.. sedih that it cudnt work out AGAIN. 10,000,000th time now. bosan je aina nak dengar. so, ive decided not to tell aina pulak bout the split. gile.. pamie dah pesan, dont go too rush in future.. i dont. i din. nazrin did!! die yg rushing2 into it so much.. sayang, blablabla itu.. sayang, blablabla ini.. sayang i sket.. all the craps.. ewh.. eerghhh! i am so not over it ke? relax nadia, it's a phase... just a phase.. haha.. cakap kat zul bukan main pandal lagi.. phase la ape la... wekk.. ppl..

WORK/OFFICE. work's never been more stressful. dgn pending daily reports since 30th jan until 17th feb. it's half a mth man.. i cant believe that zam cud be that selfish when i was on my medical leave. man, gdm! i was sick...!! n yati n azmi pon tak bleh plak nak pakse zam suh wat eh? tqvm all. tqvm. it's my day now. urs will come one day. huh! REVENGE!! GRUDGES!! ya Allah, busuknye ati aku.. huh! nak wat camne.. like mashe consoled me, saying : nard, kdg2 kawan2 ni pun susah gak nak ckp.. hmmm, mmg pon!! balek2 aku je yg kene buli. mentang2 la aku ni lemah... duuh!! hmm, well, oh yes.. OM team dah reshuffle balek.. nazri gi injap, halim's taking his place, humai ganti uncle krishnan jadi driver halim, while uncle krishnan jadi driver team bani.. bani dah pening dari pagi semalam mikirkan masalah berdepek datang atas bahu.. haishhh.. owh, n acik plak masuk geng abg hamzah.. hahhh, amek ko reshuffle cam haram.. zam plak, taking halim's mwo part.. halim kene handle team 2A.. hell dowhh for him.. that's seriously a total disaster.. halim sangat tidak mahu handle site balek.. he's been there last year for a few mths.. dan mcm2 die merungut dengan penuh hampe.. dahla takleh nak ot, pastu huuuhh, kalao aku, part yg paling aku benci is when it comes to month end n u have to settle all of the ot chit for the team members. huh! tough2!! god bless him.. n fyi, we're still not in talking term.. but yeah he did text me while i was hospitalized the other day but i din replied his sms ever.. up until now.. jahat kan aku? no, i just cant accept what he'd said to me.. he said it into my face.. pointing his finger.. into my face.. seriously man, i cant accept that.. im sorry.. kau mintak maaf jela dengan tuhan k.. i think ive already done my part ..

blog warming greetings

Assalamualaikum.. :8)

i dunno y but as i wake up tadi ive decided to blog seriously. ngee~ i just love to share my thots n opinions, my feelings.. so i said y not? hmmmm.. ive blogged in my ofis blog site but the moderator once told me that the thing only can be seen by the owner je.. aiks? klaka ok..

ok, it's 5 to 8 now. im still on my bed. nak basuh baju, mak da potong line.. :8( terpaksela tunggu.. erk..

oh yes. smlm i went out n lepaks2 with my dear gf zt. hang around her bilik. do some catchups. dah bertaon tak jumpe boleh? padehal duk punyela dekat.. owh, what a bz women we are.. (poyo!).. ok, the updates!! zt dah almost 2 years working as a PA to an architect kat jkr yg tempat aunty waheeda keje tu.. next to medan mara there.. owh, what a story.. n lagi hangat zt bleh eh bercinte ngan mamat satu boss ngan aku.. uik uik.. (neways, samat maju jaye la zt on ur rship ok!). hmm, i never asked what his name is. tapi, the bf is from pj ofis. hmmm, lagi.. owh, it's very sad to hear bile zt cakap mak die saket.. suffering from colon cancer.. (bless her!).. syian mak zt.. nearly 3mths now after she's diagnosed. now, zt tgh sibuk2 settlekan for her to transfer to seremban so that die bleh jage mak die kat sane.. but si sengal ni belum lagi submit form tu to JPA. hadoi la zt.. well, papepun.. let us pray for her mother's wellness..

well, earlier last nite jugak nadia texted me kate nak cite masalah hangat.. i said ok im all ears.. lahaiii.. sian minah ni.. die sedang head over heel for a guy yg oredi engaged. hmmm..

aku tengah tunggu bila dia nak datang n cerita masalah dia tu kat aku.


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updates!!!

am currently browsing the net straight from my hospital bed.. (chehh.. bleh wat lagu emo mcr baru!!) hikhikhik.. nothing serious kot.. to me la… but to nairus, wah.. die yg lebih freakout sbb my blood pressure was low for the past week.. it went lower and lower that i din drive myself to the clinic.. (thx to su ali, zam dan pakcik2 teksi dan Pn Nora of course yg membawa saye ke Reddy– here we go again.. anor memo di Reddy ring my head.. haha.. lame gile perangai!!)

well, nothing much.. tadi Dr Fazilah wat rounding.. n she said.. im free je kalao nak balek.. boleh aje dilepaskan.. but, i chose to stay here.. memikirkan kerja-kerja di SYABAS yg piling up.. pending… sume menanti kedatangan Cik Nadia ni untuk settlekan, pening kepale aku… dengan zam yg kejam tu.. huh! (ko bace ni zam.. pengkhianat bangse!!)

oh yes, zul baru pulang… die datang amek id die nk gi ofis jap.. n Pak Yeop n Abg Osman Bunge pun drop by jap td.. membawe buah2an.. hehehehe.. i was entertained having them around.. when pak yeop cakap pasal his fishing comp kat titiwangse die dapat tangkap kure2.. hahahahahaha.. klaka gile.. n the peaks were like when we ngumpat like hell bout the management.. >;8) ha ha ha… oh ye, tadi juge Miss Reggy The Cutest Bb datang.. b4 she went off to mlc.. ngan family die.. die drop by sum sup tulang she bought from yusop haslam.. hehehehe… (aku belum mkn lagi reggy… soriii.. too full.. kang ai mamam ye.. :8)) oh, yes, not to be forgotten of course, CK pun datang tadi n managed to hear sum HOT stories dari die.. yehey!!! serunuk kan….? keje cam CK.. hihihihi.. jeles3… nak KJ, CK.. aku nak KJ!!!! ngahahahahahaha…

n oh, kak fetti da discharged da.. dah slamat discharged.. die sangat happy.. Dr Fazilah bagi die mc for like 3-4 days kot tadi aku dgr.. if im not mistaken la… but niting pon, aku da exchange our fon nums.. senang la kot2 de masalah banking/bekalan air.. senang nak ring up kan? hihi..

tadi ayah n makyah drop by… just to check whether im doin fine or not.. u know, it feels great to get to know the fact that ppl actually concern about u… but it tends to happenned when u’re sick, not feeling well, not in a good condition so called n so forth.. heh! bosan! but, im liking this.. im surrounded by loveable line ups of frens n relatives… (yeah! nadia mmg disayangi..!)

so, i’d like to take this opportunity to thank everyone who had dropping me a visit..

ck, en muhaizam ahmad, fairol anuar zahari, airil yeop, amirul, abg sham, mak, along, boy, babah abd aziz ali, babahku ab aziz ab wahab of course…, pamie, kid jogging partnerku, Nairus n Fairuz (how can i forget?).. hmmmm… siti nadia n fren, aida izit? (sorry if i get that wrong), cousins… kak wa, oshin n atien.. shaharil n fifa from global globe.. pakyob n abg osman bunge.. who else? owh, yes… how can i forgot.. Zul Azri Sharim, Yayan dan Khairun Najjah (thx for the visits.. thx for accompanying me… hihihi.. thx for the lappy zul.. mirul, thx for the blue cube.. najj baby, thx for the MELMAN.. i lov u..!!)

and the donuts from all of u guys.. haha… thx sbb sudi layan kemengade2an aku pada ari pertama aku di sini.. yehey!!!

erghhh.. so far, tu je kot yg aku nak jot down here.. a few highlights.. nanti pape i’ll let u know later aite… :8))

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