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Treat me bad!

Treat me nice, i cant work out what it means.

Make me hate you, for it would be a whole lot easier for me.

Breathe in water,
B. Disgrace

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Kadang tu i was afraid of being me. Im afraid if i ever i said too much, spoke too much, it will only pushes you away from me.

Sometimes, i find it hard, expressing myself. Im afraid what would you think of me later then.

Kadang tu, i tweeted and i deleted the tweets back. Because i hold on to Konot's words to me. Dia kata major turn off kalau perempuan tu suka mencarut. Weck pun pernah cakap, "kau maki hamun dalam post kau, nanti org ingat kau perempuan murahan".

At the same time, everyday i wish that i would change myself. The fact that, bila marah, jangan mencarut straightaway. Istighfar. Deep breath. Namun, bisikan syaitan gak menguasai aku. You know, ustaz kata, syaitan paling senang nak pengaruhi org mukmin time dia tgh marahlah. Masa perasaan marah tu membuak-buak.

Rasa kerdil di sisi Allah bila fikir. Iman rapuh.

Takpalah. This is me. Walaupun im so positive that youre with or into someone so much right now, i am tired of doing all the efforts.

But you must realise the fact that for most women, decision yang diorang buat sangat bergantung dgn emosi diorang waktu tu.

Sekian.


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Doa, Takdir, Sebab.

Orang kata kalau selalu doa baik2 kat orang, insyaAllah akan patah balik kat kita. Aku selama ni doa yg baik2 kat kawan2. Apsal takde pon benda yg happy jadi kat diri aku? (If you know what I mean..)

Now Nadia kau nak persoalkan takdir Allah? Qada dan qadar?

Tak, aku just rasa kenapa contoh2 semua berlaku kat sekeliling aku je? Dan bukannya pada aku? Kenapa?

Sebab? Aku nak tau sebab?



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Through.

She shooed you off her priority list.
You're no longer a period.
To her, now, you're just like everybody else.

Washed and unseen.
B. Disgrace

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Derogatory.

When she starts saving you under the alphabets, it is likely that you are no longer exist in her index.

Slides.
B. Disgrace

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Nine to Ten

Nine going to ten and yet everything is still at stake.

I wish i could stop and leave. Go on. By myself again like last year's September and back.

But i just can't. It's not that easy.

Well yea, maybe i should try HARDER. To leave.

Grounded by heart.

B. Disgrace.


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Why Argue?

I dont understand why couples have to argue on something silly.

Look, there's always two sides of a coin.

Reality check - in some cases, we; males and females, think differently. Bear it! Live with it.. Stop arguing. Work things out. Creatively. Hmm~

Okay, i must admit that i, myself, have had, at times, feel kinda hurt by what my guy does, but yes, life aint gonna be easy for us at all time.

Cheers!

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